Taking the last breath, he had one last look. Twenty five years flashed by. What has become of all the time ? Was it the choices he made or the paths he was forced into ? At every stage of life, they were always there. Those hands that offered a cigar, the thoughts of ecstasy, money , fame and floating high above the world. Was it worth it? Too late to answer that. For now , it’s only a matter of minutes before leaving this world behind.
A group of friends, a love untold, a one night stand, a betrayal, fear and now death. ‘No’ was always an option, he just never saw it. The way out was always there, he just never looked. Not daring to stand up, the fear of rejection was what drove him to the smoke and the blood. To be accepted, to forget the worry, that was all he wanted. And now, addicted to the fumes of meth and cannabis, he has come to the last moments of his fame.
Plastered across the cover of every piece of media, fame wasn’t what he desired anymore. To have thrown away a perfect life, to have destroyed the life of a girl, to have escaped captivity was all he had accomplished.
A chance at redemption, forgiveness, no. No was what remains , now that it’s all said and done. A meaninglessness journey. And as one last attempt to escape, busting out of the prison and running back to the same people who promised him glory and took away his life, he ran. Overcome with rage, he sliced through the throats of them. The man who taught him to smoke , the man who brought him a little girl to devour, the man who taught him to steal, all of them, one by one. His one motive was to make sure that his fate does not befall another.
In the crumbling shack, he sat down. Gasoline splashed all over. At one corner, a blade in hand, he lit the match. Bleeding to death as the flames roared in. Burning away the remains of those demons. Burning away his memories, his crimes and his fame.
In a matter of seconds, the flames engulfed him. He who took in smoke to forget pain was now burning to ashes. Smoke rose high above, dark and dense, like the souls that burned.